This Crazy Life I Lead

Today I got the inspiration to start a blog... I mean don't get me wrong, I am not some crazy person who just happened upon the choice. I love to write. I love to encourage. And I painstakingly adore my children... who happen to star in a lot of my ramblings.
With that being said, I will fail. Many people will dislike what I say, and many won't care. But I decided, with some love and encouragement, that I do not need an audience or support from many, I don't need to please the world or even myself. If I help, inspire, or make one single person smile than it was worth taking this huge leap of faith into the unknown world of writing.

So without further ado...
My life is a whirlwind of diapers, snot, and lots of giggles. It is full of discipline, mistakes, and a load of grace. My life is loving and beautiful... and quite often ugly and shameful. I have days that are amazing, and many that are ordinary. I hope to be a mom that teaches love, forgiveness, and grace.  I hope to show my children that life is not about how we are treated, but how we treat others that matter. I want them to know that at the end of the day, if you make one person smile it is worth everything. To teach through actions is so much harder than expected, but it is the only way to be done... we show them what life is truly about through our actions. I know I fail in so many ways, but when they are old and grown my deepest prayer is that I led a Christ-like life that showed every single day.

My marriage looks a lot like greasy hair, yoga pants, and a quick temper. I wish I can say those were my bad days, but to be honest they are just my normal ones... good, bad, and ugly. My husband is my better half. He has shown me how to respect myself, and has helped me believe I am worth far more than I ever imagined. I hope to one day be exactly what I should be for him. Until then, I know he loves me with his whole heart, hairy legs and all... and he is amazing for it.

Some days I feel so on top of it all. I rule the world (well at least my small little one)... These days I take pride in my accomplishments, like finger painting and baking. Laundry PUT AWAY (never happens) and clean hair. I have dinner ready and the dishes done... It's so easy to brag about the good days isn't it? Then other days I am totally unwilling to admit to the amount of cartoons that were watched by our 3 lovely children. Or the amount of yelling that happened due to the sloth-like nature of getting out the door. Those days it is easy to pretend that I didn't make some not-so-good choices in my parenting style.
But you know what? I am not going to cover it up. I have good days and I have bad, and I am willing to bet my non-existent pay check that you do too. But if we love our families, and do our best on that given day.... even if it is a complete 7 hour marathon of Doc McStuffins then so what? Maybe they'll be a doctor some day ;) Lets be honest. Lets be supportive. Lets show our true selves...

So with the start of this blog I vow to be honest. And I vow to make mistakes, lets face it, we all do. I vow to do my best and encourage when one needs to be encouraged, love when one needs to be loved and I know some pretty decent jokes, if one needs to laugh. So welcome to the crazy life I lead.