Why God, Why Me?

I sit here drinking a steaming cup of coffee for the first time in weeks, or so it seems... not that I haven't drank coffee, but steaming? Its like a dream come true.

I sit here staring out the back door at the cardinal eating bird seed that has fallen from our feeder and think God truly is magnificent... I mean you should see it, against the white of the snow. Breathtaking.

I sit here with my angel who I personally believe has made it her life mission to wake up before the sun, like a fun game that she made with the master light (I will beat you tomorrow you silly sun!! Ok not really, but you get the gist).... A few weeks ago it used to bother me, more than I would like to admit. But right at this moment, and in the weeks leading up to it, I realize how precious this time is together. She doesn't get much alone time with me, being the youngest, and I think it is a little nudge saying, go spend some one on one time with her... even if it is just sitting on the same couch, milk and coffee in respective hands, watching Mickey Mouse or reading books. It is a delightful time of my day and I hope I always feel that way.

I sit here in the comfort of my home, wrapped in blankets and so much love and feel so overwhelmed... Do you ever wonder how you got to where you are? Whether you are in a good place, a scary place, or a miserable place, do you remember to thank God for what you have? I often forget... I often take what is good, as what I deserve, and what is bad or hurtful, something that is definitely not deserved... why is that?

We live in a world full of sin and hatred, we live in a world that is teaming with temptation and bad people... Yes, there is so much love and a bounty of good, but we are not just bubbles of people who only envelope the good that happens, and avoid the bad. We are so easily tempted to say "Why, God why me??" when something awful comes our way. It is so easy to fall into the trap of the feeling of entitlement!

I think the more natural response that should come from our mouth is when something good and amazing comes our way, even the littlest things... "Why God, why me??"

I don't know about you, but today I am going to sit here with my angel, my steaming cup, and the beauty out of my very own window like it was painted just for me, and with a grateful heart wonder "Why God, why me??"