This feeling of irritability with the things I love most makes me even more frustrated...
This ball of emotions is all because life isn't going as I planned. It really comes down to that.
I am not skinny and fit, as I absolutely planned for the end of my 20's.
My husband is going out of town for 2 weeks, leaving me with all duties, and I am annoyed.
My kids... well they are just being kids, but today it irks me.
My God. The one who is planning my life, well He is not doing it right!! At least not at this moment.
You never know...
You never know why things are going the way they are... why is there snow on the ground when I really wanted to get a good 3 mile walk in today to meet my skinny goal?
Why are the kids arguing when I obviously have had it up to HERE with it all?
Why does my husband have to leave at this critical time of sanity?
And why, oh why God, are You letting it all happen?
You never know.
You never know why something is happening, until it is over. Then your hindsight really is 20/20... or rather you realize Gods miraculous hands had a reason and a plan for you. Right NOW you don't know why life is happening the way it is. It can be frustrating, tiring, happy, sad, and everything in between... and we always wonder why? Why is this happening now... but you know, God has never failed to pull through in His timing. He has a plan for me, and my frustration isn't going to change the outcome, because God is good.
So I am laying my frustrations down. It is time to trust in the plan for me.
Be strong Rachel. You already know you can do more than a year, so two weeks is nothing. Deep breath and remember that God is good and HE will provide what you need when you need it to continue. Mathew is doing this for you and your kids. Remember that too, he loves you and so does God.
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